No.20298
>>20297Not well! I appreciate you asking though.
No.20299
Uhh okay I guess. Adapting to ex-NEET isn't easy but hasn't been horrible so far. I'm kinda frustrated with a lot of things. I haven't had time to watch a show or play a game in weeks and I feel like I'm rotting inside.
No.20309
Just got a certification. I'm actually going to try for another one this year. Still, it doesn't mean I have a job related to the cert, so I think I'm just doing okay. I'll be doing great if I can get that extra cert and if I can learn some other stuff. I'll be doing amazing if I manage to get a new job by the end of the year, but I'm pretty sure companies cut back during this time. Still, better than usual, I think.
No.20311
I'm not even holding on. I'm just strung up by a thread till I find the right exit. In mean time however short it likely will be I hope to make things better for others.
>>20300That's what audiobooks are good for.
No.20392
>>20391That's your issue tbqh
No.20394
I'm fine. Thanks for asking.
No.20493
I found out rotating coffee and tea works better than just drinking multiple cups of the same in a row. Feeling a little better, still quite sleepy recently. I haven't left apartment in more than 7 months and still can't. Because of military draft. I'm not going to fight for this country, or for any country whatsoever. Involuntary NEET is a thing nowadays. Otherwise, it's fine: plenty of things to do and still not enough time for everything I'm interested in.
No.20528
>>20493>I haven't left apartment in more than 7 months and still can't. Because of military draft. that's awful, stay safe sushi
No.20529
>>20493That's probably just the L-theanine from the tea. It makes for a calmer, steadier buzz than caffeine by itself.
No.20536
Made some progress but I can feel myself falling back. Confused on a lot of things in life and some part of me makes me want to stop progressing and accept the present. TLDR, okayish.
No.20540
Started a new job last month after being laid off for a while and thought that would change up my life a bit but really things are the exact same except now I need to sit in the office sometimes.
No.20546
>>20307How did your assignments go, Hope you're doing better now
No.20559
>>20540This is the life. I wish I could just get a new job and it's just the same thing in my life.
No.20601
>>20546I managed to get them all done and read through most of that book too, enough to fake knowing about it. As soon as it was over, I ended up getting three more assignments dumped on me. I'm just gonna take it easy for the next few days.
No.21147
I'm feeling blue.
No.22063
Things are going. Having a part time job and college at the same is difficult but I'm managing. Maybe I'll quit in september when classes start again, who knows. I'm at least trying to be more social and make my physical space clean, which with the nicer weather is easier. Also trying to use my phone less.
No.22064
I have no job and that makes me a bit insecure because I don't work and I feel others may see me as worthless.
I don't usually care what other people think, why do I do now?
On the other hand, I am building a skillset so I think it's not that bad, I don't have a pressing need for a job right now, why can't I enjoy my leisure?
I also need sex desperately but I am barred from getting any of it.
No.22065
what are you locked in a cage?
No.22067
I have to write 8,000 words over May. I have to write two job applications too and the deadline is in the middle of May. I'm behind in my course studies. My head is about to explode.
No.22152
I am not holding up. I have never held up
No.22160
i missed you while the site was down sushis ;;
No.22164
>>22162god made you beautiful and worth loving
No.22190
>>22166Forget what other people say. Just roll with it.
No.22206
>>22162If it's without cause for the moods and it's not a new occurence it sounds like it could be bipolar disorder. I'm not a doctor or anything though. Take it with a wheel barrow of salt. Could be an idea to get probed by a professional.
>>22166>falling in love is like stepping into sh*tCan be, sure. If you're unlucky with who you fall in love with.
It's nothing like that at all if you happen to fall in love with someone you have good chemistry with, who is not already in a relationship and all that.
Some people work weirdly and just happen to get feelings for people they really shouldn't be with. Not weird to think love is bad if you're only getting into things with toxic people.
No.22207
I'm not doing well. I'm really ready to give up on trying to make friends. I've made a genuine effort time and time again and it never results in anything. I've joined intramural sports leagues, gone to board game nights, book clubs, and all other sorts of meetups, and haven't made a single friend out of it. And it's not like I just sit alone in the corner at this stuff, I'm friendly and attentive and make conversation but just never feel any connection with anyone and clearly the feeling is mutual since no one has pursued a friendship with me. Every time I go out again I have to psyche myself up that this will be the time things work out but the fact is when I know I'll end the night disappointed again I'd rather just avoid that feeling and not go out in the first place.
No.22241
brushed my teeth yesterday for the first time in a while
No.22245
>>22190Thanks.
>>22206I do not want to invalidate the whole field of psychiatric knowledge outright though I do feel that it is somewhat justified to dismiss it and I am positive that popular psychology has been a massive mistake for the human race - like if psychiatry might be somewhat wrong, psychology is super wrong.
I am pretty humble about it though. I just do not think humanity has solutions to its own problem.
Nah, my take on it is that love is like that because it smells and it's sticky, so, it makes sense to me that way :3
As for the supposed aversion, well, love isn't particularly comfy, it's that uncool feeling which makes you have silly thoughts and do silly things, it's not even that elevating, it very well could be the opposite.
Sorry, IDK what to comment on your points about love. You talk about importance of another person but to me, it's mostly a "me-problem". I think I was a maker and a breaker of all my "relationships" if one could call them that.
>>22207Check your PMs :3
>>22224I play Dungeon Crawl Stone Soup and bcrawl. It's fun but I didn't have a win in a long time.
>>22241Enamel can be surprisingly resilient, like you can go without any teeth problems for literal years if you have okay diet etc but ultimately the "proper" way is brush+floss every day at least, that way you minimize the risks. Do I do that this regularly? Not really w
No.22250
>>22245>I just do not think humanity has solutions to its own problem.I don't think humanity knows what the problem is, or if we do, I think we are too prone to indirection and single-cause thinking, that's why we have religion, state, money, and anime ;-)
No.22256
>>22253I'm sorry to hear that sushi. The way this is written makes me a little confused as to whether the girl you were into told you herself or if it was someone else. Since you were going on dates and she suddenly became rude I imagine that it would be an outside factor that caused this rather than you. Though regardless of the cause, the situation sucks. I hope you will find someone good for you one day. I had a similar situation once where a long time friend suddenly told me they no longer wanted me to speak to them.
No.22257
>>2256
She told me that herself, we kissed and a bunch of other things for her randomly to tell me she wasn't actually interested in me yesterday, it hurt a lot. I'm mute so not a lot of people like me.
No.22262
>>22253Homosexuals shouldn't force themselves on other people. They should accept that their sinful behavior while openly legal and tolerated by society doesn't mean they can proposition anyone and expect it not to be upsetting. At the same time, this woman should not have been so harsh and rude in her response to you. It could also be that you are miscommunicating some things or that she misled you. Today people are encouraged to experiment and this means using others as play things which is what she may have been doing.
>>22257>I'm mute so not a lot of people like me.I mean this is just uncalled for. I can't see why that should ever be a problem. People who are not into someone because they are mute or whatever are vile sinful people.
No.22263
>>22262are you playing a character?
No.22264
>>22263We are all playing a character. Sometimes we play more than one. Why? But if you ask if I'm being sincere in what I say. I think I'm like 90% sincere and 10% doubt. I'm feeling ill right now.
No.22270
>>22269I sympathize. It feels like even the small things that would come around now and again are drying up. I am trying to focus myself, and recognize when I am actually enjoying something, or relaxed. It has helped me at least a little when there's so little to look forward to.
